I have been so angry for the past week. This morning I got up, went to the bathroom and just stood in front of the mirror. Such saddness. I realized, I am no longer angry. The anger is just debilitating. It makes me say and do things I shouldn’t and wouldn’t in a sane state. It is pointless, a waste of time. The anger has been replace by such sadness. I can’t even describe the depth of it. I feel like I am walking through a cloud. A grey one. Dark grey with a heaviness that just weighs on me. Every step is a challenge. I feel like I gained 100 pounds overnight. I can’t move. Everything is slow and deliberate. I feel old. And so tired.

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